It is hard to come back to this blog today, because I don't know how much more I can talk about how I can't seem to break out of the stuck. That's been basically every entry ever since I restarted this.

As insane as it might sound, I was looking again at alternative routes to fatherhood. But I just don't know of this body would hold together long enough to be of service. I wonder just how selfish I would be even to consider it.