Discipline has collapsed over the last couple of weeks, when I needed
I should note that the big event of the last couple of weeks was the
Math for America fundraiser. Mayor Garcetti was there, and another
outgoing city councilman. As well as several other rich dudes and
Saturday, I had a chance to spend time with Tyler, my former foster
kid. Since all of the videogames in the place are put away due to
ongoing construction chaos, I though to take him to the Peterson
Automotive Museum. I was worried if he'd take an interest in it …
Following on from yesterday's plan to try to see the world
through rose-colored glasses, today I decided that I would
actualize the world of a romantic comedy. I showered and shaved,
wore dressy clothes, and took the train to work. I can't say
that the world itself became more pleasant …
I got up a bit late and had to do the calculus between the 30 minute
drive and the 1 hour 5 minute travel on the bus. Expediency won out,
so I drove. But it wasn't just expediency exactly. Part of it was
that -- with my mom around -- I do …
Cousin Brandon dropped by on the way to Disneyland, with his wife and
two little girls. We went to the local park for a bit, and then came
back to the house for some pizza and soda. It was good to seem them
again. In my 20 years here, they'd …
Another beautiful day for Ciclavia. This one was downtown, South Park
to Chinatown, and Echo Park to Mariachi Plaza over the 6th St Bridge.
Stephen and I went in the late morning, and covered the whole route.
It was joyful.
Near the end, my back started to struggle, but, one …
Eager to check out the new K Line, I hopped on around mid-day and
headed south. The K Line is lovely in every possible way: the subway
stations are clean and quality. Everyone on the train was
enthusiastic about the new infrastructure. It was great to have a
little bit …
Around 7:30, I took the Expo Line into DTLA and then hoofed it
a few blocks west to Teragram. As per usual, the Expo Line
was filty, given that it is more a daycare for homeless than
an actual means of transportation. Food waste and trash everywhere.
Bro and Mom barely speak now. Bro is nearly mute. Mom tries to
interact, asking hopefully benign questions. Bro feels interrogated
and shuts down more. Mom needles bro hoping for any sort of human
reaction. Bro stays in room all day watching TV, avoiding contact.
For years, the chimney of the house has been slowly separating
from the main body of the house. Each year the top of the chimney
had leaned a couple of millimeters farther, with the crack
and gaps getting wider, letting in the rain and making a quick
entry for rats …
So over a week with no posts. It was a goal of mine to try to be
consistent, but, the daily posts about how I was not meeting the goal
of restoring the social in my life started to feel a bit pathetic.
But, did I change my behavior? No …
With my birthday soon upon me, a handful of well wishes arrived via
a variety of platforms: phone, text, Facebook, Twitter. I received
more communication than I expected given my 2022 hermit existance.
I've somehow allowed myself to be lured back into hobby hacking.
I think with so many people …
Another humid day, but, Hurricane Kay has almost faded away.
I just spend all day in my room, trying to work, not working, and not
leaving the desk because I've done nothing. Tomorrow, I'll be found
out for a fraud, but, still that doesn't break through my attention
With the heat broken and humidity from Hurricane Kay slowly fading, it
was almost pleasant outside today, for those few brief moments I
stepped out of the bedroom office. Morning new still dominated by the
death of the Queen. I had much respect for her, but, clearly she was
Yesterday, I wrote how I needed to get back to finding the social
element in everything. Supposedly newly dedicated, today I could have
gone to church, but, I didn't. Usually when I'm bailing on going to
church, it is because I have some weak argument about how this is not …
Yesterday, I actually went to the gym. I took it super easy, just
a couple of machines. I'm still completely sore today. I knew that it
was going to be horrible. I'm so angry at myself that I let myself give
up and end up here, but, I had to …